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Thursday, February 09, 2006

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 20:15:11 GMT

I feel kinda forced to update...>> *looks at the comment in her chatterbox*
Sorry you didn't hear of me for so long, but hey, I survived my exam week! And I think I failed only one exam...am I good or what??
But let me already come to other topics! Though I already calmed down, I - of course - need to comment on the recent events...

NEWS BEING SUSPENDED UNTIL THE END OF THE YEAR:
Ok, nothing new, I know...up to now, everybody should have heart of it...I, well, kinda got used to the idea, though a small part of me still can't get it...HOW CAN IT BE?? Only because they saw him drinking?? WTF, I can't believe it, it's a normal thing for a 17 year old guy...idol or not...though I have to admit that I see the reasons behind Mr. Kitagawa's reaction, as hard as it is...I mean, why take back the whole group if only one of them did wrong?? And no, I won't blame Kusano...I won't say it's his fault...it kinda is his fault, bit I don't feel any anger or hate as some of the other fans do, I...erm...I only ponder upon why he was so stupid to let them get him?? Honestly, I don't think the others are 'better' or 'cleaner', they simply didn't get caught so far...so why were you so careless Kusano??
Anyway, I gonna post two post I made in a forum, so that you can see my other reactions...
My first impressions after I heart the shocking news:
I've heard this too...I can't believe it!!!!
I can't imagine that they will be away for sooo long!!
On the other side I heard that they solo projects will continue, so maybe they can concentrate on this...
Though I have the feeling that the group starts to split...how can they suspend the whole group??
I mean, ok, Uchi's incident and now Kusano's isn't the best puplicity, but I think the reaction is quite over...
Maybe it wouldn't have gone so far, if the newspapers hadn't made such a fuss about it...but I shouldn't blame them...it's the same vicious circle of blaming again like when Uchi was suspended...
My thoughts to this now: I still don't get they will be away for so long...and I realized that the solo project mostly concern Ryo and YamaP, the others kinda lack them...Massu and Tego have their dorama right now, Kei-chan his radio show, but what about Shige?? And what happens if Massu and Tego's dorama ends??
I now think the reaction of Mr.Kitagawa is reasonable, though I still think it's the medias fault...as always...
Why I think Mr. Kitagawa's reasons are understandable will be cleared in my next post...It's the answer to a girl, who said that first, Mr. Kitagawa has nothing to fear about the incident(s), and second, that it was a set up scandal to help KAT-TUN to a better debut:
First, I don't think KAT-TUN is able to make up the bad publicity...not because they're not famous (cause right now the famous ones are them), but because you always remember scandals better than other things, as sad as it is.
Second, I think for Johnny it's especially important to show his boys as perfect idols. Not only because this is the better publicity, but also because he was already faced with some bad accuses in the past. Starting with the rumours that he would harass the boys, leading to the stories about his alcohol consume. I think, though he has the 'idol monopol' in Japan and has a lot of influence on the media, he knows that he can't let the rumours get too big and blown up, as that would cost him a lot...especially it concerns something he himself 'comitted' in the past.
Third, if this really was a setup scandal, I would lose all the rest of respect I have for Mr. Kitagawa. I don't like him, but I still thought he was kinda brilliant and smart, for being able to set up such a big company and hold it for such a long time, but if he needs to use such methods to get publicity, it's nothing more then sad and reckless...

Right now I have come to some 'agreement' with my own opinions. I think a break wouldn't hurt, as long as they come back - all of them together!! A little rest might be good to recover some strenght, physically and psycologically. Nevertheless, I'm still afraid of them breaking up...
My thoughts about this now: I still have the same opinion...TOTALLY!!!!

Well, and to the good news...KAT-TUN, congrats to your debut!! I'm so happy about it, we've all waited for soo long... I think you yourself are still kinda stunned about it, though...how long did you guys already know about it?? *inquisitor's glance*
Doesn't matter...CONGRATS CONGRATS CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!! luv ya

ok...I'll post more tomorrow...I think I will go totally fangirl-like then...be alerted!!
See you!

Friday, January 20, 2006

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 20:50:04 GMT

still no internet...seems I`m repeating myself...T__T
what can I tell??? I H-A-T-E exams...who doesn`t anyway??
I`ve got 2 exams a day, the whole next week!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arieneetsuno~~~~!!
I`m only studying...sleeping, eating studying...now I`m taking a little break and a friend invited us for dinner, so here I am, not taking part in the conversation because I`m busy using his internet...*blush* SORRY MATTCHAN!!!!

ja, that`s already all for now, sorry guys...
Marit...hope to hear from you again! mega hugs

Conny

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 15:36:13 GMT

ok, ok, I see, I really have to update!! *bad girl*...rofl...

let's see...yeah, my winter holidays are ending on Monday and I will go back to Vienna on Saturday. The term will then end on January 31th, and I will be studying like an idiot suring the next three weeks, cause I have to write 10 tests.
I promised myself to start learning during the holidays, but hey, it's holidays, ok??!! It's not that I haven't done anything, but I could really have done more.

And, ha, I'm soooo happy! I spend two days at Lisa's and now my external hard drive is full with 133 GB of dorama, Jpop and so on!!! I'm like hyperventilating! And I already watched the whole Nobuta wo Produce series, of coursed loved it and am now a greater fan of Pi than before!! konkon...
He's so good looking, with more weight, black hair and no curls up there!! YamaPi, please stay this way F-O-R-E-V-E-R!!! thehe...

I also started Hana Yori Dango and 1 Litre no namida...and I got Battle Royal, unfortunately with a French synchro and I realized how bad I've gotten in French! I understand most of some written conversation, but let them talk and I stand there like a dumbass...voila...erks...maybe I find English subs or the Japanese original tone...

ah, me stupid girl, I just canceled a download which was almost finished, because it pooped up in front of me and my finger was faster in pressing the enter button than my brain htinking stooooop...mäh, so once again...

I discovered emule (thanks to lisa) and now I'm downloading like hell, hehe, so much stuff there, not only Jpop and dorama stuff, but also like Gilmore Girls series and all (I'm a biiig fan of GG, but as I don't have a tv set at the moment...T_T)

And I got mod of a forum called JPB (Johnny's Pretty Boys), the admin is kandi, a very nice girl and I'm mod of the NEWS section (I really moved from KAT-TUN to NEWS, I can't believe it) and well, come and take a look!
http://je.regret-less.org/ (look at the forum button above!)

I'll go to the Franz Marc exhibition later, I'm looking forward to it, because I already heard it was very good!!! Yeah!
And I still need to do my laundry, iron it and pack my suitcase *doesn't want to*

Actually, I feel kinda strange about going back to Vienna. I like university and I already have a lot of friends there, but Munich is so much more 'home'!! Argh...why can't Vienna be exactly next to Munich?? Then I could live in Munich but go to university in Vienna...

well, hope I'll have time to write again soon!
see ya guys, conny

PS: Marit-chan, did you get my letter???

Merry Christmas

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 16:23:16 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!!!

Have a nice day/evening, many presents and be nice to each other!

love you,
Conny

Friday, November 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 17:35:21 GMT

ok...now I have internet but no notebook...they broke into our flat yesterday and stole our notebooks, Hanna's camera and some wires...

and with my notebook they took almost all my Johnny's stuff with them...T__T and the worst thing...all my photos I took in Japan as well...and I didn't burn them on CD because I still haven't gotten some order into my folders..and now they are all gone...they've stolen one year full of memories...my best year of my whole life so far, and they simply stole it!!!!!!

Those f*** assholes, I wanna kill them...how dare they?? They even touched my underwear because they searched for money...

I don't want to talk anymore...I'll only start crying again...

see you somewhere sometime...

PS: Marit, I'm so sorry I can't do the subs now...please tell saffy that I'm really really sorry...T__T hontou ni gomen!!!!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 17:51:36 GMT

ok...here I am...ONLINE!!!!!!!! yes, you won't believe it, I have internet AT HOME!!!! After a real Odyssey though...the first guy came on Monday (right after the guy who brought my bed, yes, I'm now also the proud owner of a REAL bed) and well...he installed all the strange boxes we apparently need to get internet and telephone and then wanted to configurate my pc...well...he really wanted to...I think he called his partner about 20 times to ask what else he could try to get the f*** system running, but in the end he had to give up (after 1 hour of trying...><). He told me his partner (who seemed to be the brighter one) would come the next day and try again...so I had to get up at 6 o'clock (!!!!) again, because I only had time in the morning for I had to go to university later...argh...so the next day, the guy came and tried and tried and...hey, HE GOT IT!!! (after one more hour of pure failure...)...so, here I am, surfing through the wide world and breathing some other air than only the Austrian one...

but...I have to admit, I get to like Austria...why?? Of course...a boy's to blame for that...a really cute boy...called *fanfare*... kekekeke, no, I won't tell that because I gave my hp adress to some of my friends from university and I don't want all of them to know it (sorry...I'm sure most of you guys already figured it out though ^^'). The only thing: he's together with me in Japanese studies...but...as I don't go to most of the lessons, I barely see him...*sniff*...well, anyway, what I actually wanted to talk about are my rhetoric abilities...cause I seem to have NONE (though I study it...><, shit happens)...please take a good look at the following "conversation":

He: "Hello Conny, how are you?"
Conny: ... *nodding*
He: *interpreting the nodding* "So you're fine?"
Conny: ... *nodding*
He: "Well, We see us tomorrow then, right?"
Conny: ...*nodding*

He goes away and Conny is banging her head against the hardest brick wall EVER!!!
I've already talked to him quite a few times and then...AM I STUPD or what...argh...dear...and I want to become an "intercultural communicator" (at least that's the term our professors use...) and I'm not able to talk to a normal guy...kyaaaaaa...

I don't want to imagine what will happen if I ever meet a famous person...><

Oh, and before I forget it now...I'm doing subs now (Japanese->English that is)...^^ Hope I'm not too aweful...

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 17:36:35 GMT

uahhhhhh!! I'm sitting here in the room of my friend Deniz and actually we should be doing our f*** English homework, but it's soooooooooooooo difficult. Honestly, it's freaking me out...so difficult!!!! ><

well, we have to continue now...only wanted to say hello and ja, before I forget it:

TODAY SHUJI TO AKIRA's CD came out...and I hope my friend in Japan bought me the limited edition...

see you guys, bye bye

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 20:45:56 GMT

Chai Latte…

I can’t live without Chai Latte…whenever I go to a coffee shop, there’s no need to think about my choice…it’s always Chai Latte.

You can get the best Chai Latte at Starbucks or at Blue Orange, right now, I prefer Blue Orange (haven’t found the Starbucks here yet…^^’).

I drink Chai Latte when I’m happy, I drink it when I’m sad, I drink it during studying, I drink it when I have Chai sirup at home… I drink it whenever I can!!!!

Yeah…so far so good…kkkk…

It’s 1:00 am, and Hanna went out together with the girls from her psychology class…they were here before and we had a very nice evening (with a lot of alcohol)!

Maybe I’ll have internet in 5 minutes time…it’s kinda strange, seems like I only can get internet after 0:00 am…oh, I just forgot, actually, it’s still not 1:00 am!! Today the time will change again, and if Hanna hadn’t told me so today, I would have forgotten it (again) totally…I’m very bad in things like this… therefore it’s nice to live in Japan, they don’t need to bother about the stupid time change…I always oversleep and I never change my clocks anyway, my father does it several days later when he sees I still haven’t done so…

I’m listening to a German acapella band, which is sooooooooooo good!! They’re called “wise guys” and half the time you die laughing because the lyrics are so hilarious…thihi.

Oh, and I – how exciting – have cleaned my room!! Am I good or what? I even dusted my cupboard and cleaned the floor! And Hanna and I cleaned the tube, the toilet and the kitchen. The reason for this strange behaviour?? The visit of those two girls today and the fact that Hanna's parents and her little sis will come tomorrow… my cousins will come too, but on Monday…

I’ve decided I have to hang up some idol posters and…I have to get some order into my idol stuff…I already began…but not with idol stuff but with burning Crystal Kay’s mp3 onto CD…the music is soooo good!!! I have to get some space on my pc…got too much again…

wow, you see, I uploaded this tect...meaning that I have internet at home...and well, to draw some kind of conclusion, it seems I can only get internet on Sundays after 9pm...how stupid is that??? But we decided to get our internet connection and phone this week...and we will by a new toilet seat, cause the old one is broken...>< ^^' and I will get my bank account cash card tomorrow...ye~y!!! ^^ money money mone~~~~y!!

have a nice day/night

hugs to you all, conny

Friday, October 28, 2005

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 09:52:48 GMT

hey minna!

I’m addicted…once again…^^’ this time, it’s a song by Question? It’s called “kanjite miro”…

(感じてみろ　感じてみろ　全部見せる　全部見せろ)

夢かマコトか　暗闇なのか

マヤカシなのか　オアシスなのか

出口なんかは　あるかないのか

辿り着くのは　明日か未来か

甘い誘いにみつなど無いし

辛い話に終わりは無いし

マイナスならば　増えてくばかり

トンネルの真ん中に居るみたい

こんな時代だって

進むべきなら

AH! AH! 明日はある

感じてみろ　感じてみろ　

裸のまま　曝け出して

全部見せろ　全部見せろ

ココロに火を点けろ

どんな未来だって

とどまるのなら

AH!AH! 明日はない

信じてみろ　信じてみろ

心のまま　自分の事

もがいてみろ　もがいてみろ

孤独にやられても

感じてみろ　感じてみろ

裸のまま　曝け出して

全部見せろ　全部見せろ

ココロに火を点けろ

Hope my translation isn’t that bad…

(Try to feel it, try to feel it, show everything you have, show everything you have)

Is it a dream? Is it reality? Is it darkness?

Is it a fraud? Is it an oasis?

Is there any exit, or is there none?

The thing you reach for, is it tomorrow? Or is it the future?

There is no honey to the sweet temptation (erm…hope you get what it means, can’t translate it any better, gomen)

And there’s no end to the bitter story

If there are any disadvantages they will only increase

It seems like you’re in the middle of a tunnel

But even in such a time,

There will be a tomorrow if you move on

Ah! Ah! There will be/is a tomorrow!

Try to feel it, try to feel it

Get bare and disclose yourself (that might be wrong…^^’)

Show everything you have, show everything you have

Ignite your heart!

However the future will be

If you stop

Ah! Ah! There will be no tomorrow

Try to believe, try to believe

In your heart and in yourself

Try to fight, try to fight

Even if you get exposed to loneliness

Try to feel it, try to feel it

Get bare and disclose yourself

Show everything you have, show everything you have

Ignite your heart!

Really LOVE that song…Hanna is already dying because I hear it so often…thihi, ha, btw, I didn’t tell you…but muahahahaha…I’m so good!! I told Hanna that I’m going to make a Japanese dorama and Johnny’s freak out of her, but she didn’t want to believe me…and now guess who comes to me every evening, asking if we could watch another part of Gokusen1…Am I good or what…^^

The other way round, she got me addicted to a Norwegian singer called Jim Stärk, I listen to his CD non-stop… (next to kanjite miro and Seishun Amigo)

Ah, btw, how do you like the seishun amigo PV?? I LOVE it… (seems I love a lot at the moment ^^’)…anyway, I think it’s awesome. It has everything a good PV should have: a great song, two of the best Johnny’s (I can see those who now shake their heads, but I think that’s what YamaP and Kame are!), a great background, good dancers (Taisuke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and a nice cutting. Now, I´d be very happy, if I had internet, cause I want to watch it soooooo badly…I’ve downloaded about 40% of Nobuta when I went home to Munich for one day, but now…I can’t load any further…but I’ll go to the coffee shop near the institute tomorrow, I can log into the inet there for free…dunno who’s access is it…isn’t of any interest at all. So if you read this, it will already be tomorrow, so today is tomorrow. ^^

My cousins will visit me for some days next week cause we have two days of holidays (wohow) and I’m already looking forward to it… there more like sisters to me than cousins, so that’s why.

Oh, and…and…I got a new mobile…after the stupid guy at the other shop broke it…ashole…grrrrr…now, I have a Samsung, a flip mobile, with a great camera and it’s tri-band (does this word exist like this in English??), so I will be able to use it in Japan as well!! I already made a new background…the main bg is ryo/uchi/yamap/kei-chan, the small subdisplay shows yamap only…hehe…it actually looks like I’ve taken the photo myself, because it’s one of those photos they took of themselves when they were in Hawaii (or was it NY back then??). anyway, it looks like “real”…. kkkk, I could try to say he’s my bf… nobody would believe me though…rofl…

(next day in café)

hey, there I am...I just tried to translate Cherish by NEWS...I have to go to the toilet...and the stupid download was striking and simply vanished halfway through...what´s with that???

grrr, at least I have inet here...and my second chai latte...all those who haven't tried a chai latte yet, you miss a very very delicious drink, tell you!!!! ^^

well, I go change my header now...it has to fit to the new layout...right...still dunno how to change the chatterbox though....but I did it before...how could I forget how to do it??!!??? stoopid me...

bye bye conny

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 11:16:43 GMT

argh...I´m getting a crisis...Lisa, I`ll try it here again, somehow neither your comment box nor my chatterbox want to support the link...

to the rest...English got more difficult...>< the teacher´s a real pain in the neck...dissing everyone who isn´t that good...grrr...

got my first speech in university tomorrow...about Japan in the Austrian media (couldn´t they find a more interesting topic??)...but as we´re seven people (it´s a group work) and we only have half an hour it won´t take longer then 5 minutes...what a luck!!!

see you...and Marit, I´m writing!!! hugs minna